Asdfdghjkl....

Ughhhg.

I hate feeling like this- I'm just done. I really cant even muster the will to care at this point.
Which is a half truth, you don't cry if you don't care- so apparently I still care enough somewhere in this body of mine to have hurt feelings.
I'd just rather not at this point though. I have too much running through my head without constantly being let down over things that really matter at the end of the day.
Well at least they matter to me.

It feels petty and selfish, but in the end I sometimes need things too.
With Jacob almost here, I cant help wanting to hold onto "our" time, but unfortunately- "our" time isn't a priority when it can so easily be replaced by other people and events I am excluded from.

Lord make me a stone.