Overwhelmed and under-preforming.

The last week has kicked my butt.
Jacob is SO heavy, and still growning in these last few weeks till he is due.
It's been keeping me up at night, making bathroom breaks a necessity every 30 minutes and causing more muscle to be torn.
Don't get me wrong- it's all worth it. But I'd love to be able to sleep like a normal human for just a couple nights!
My energy is WAY down, making me pretty much useless at the house. Chores have been put to the side so I can rest. Thankfully Mr M is AMAZING, so thoughtful and kind in regards to the whole thing.
I've been trying to use my short bursts of energy to make food in our crock pot or to bake something so at least we have something to eat while I try to pull my body out of this funk.

I plan on tackling the clean laundry tonight, at least to get the shirts on hangers. To keep my spirits up I made a quick batch of Preacher cookies.
They are a no-bake stove-top cookie, made with Oats, peanut butter and chocolate. Yumm!
Lately I've been listening to Micheal Bauble, and looking through Etsy for knitted baby hats for this winter.
Trying to be productive is usually the very opposite. Facebook & Blogging really don't count for "real life" accomplishments, but it's getting me to at least plan out dinners for when Jacob gets here.

So wish me luck- that laundry wont fold it's self, and though Mr M would eventually get around to it- he does SO much already.
Lord help me I love that man.

Lists & listlessness.

Things are picking up pace- though it doesn't really feel like it.
These next few weeks will be very full of various preparations.
Preparations for Jacob: Baby shower, hospital bag packing.
Preparations for Joe: Pick up at air port, get him on the lease, get him settled for work.
Preparations for Kelly: Keep Mike on track to have house finished, clean & ready when she gets back.
Preparations for us: Shopping and cooking so we all can eat well during my recovery, disinfecting the house, nesting for the baby.

So many lists of "things to do" are in my head- though I cant seem to get them down on paper in a non-cluttered and coherent manner.
Then to top it off, the weather is about 20 degrees higher than I would like. & I ate all my Otter Pops.. Even the purple ones!
(quick side note: my entire life I thought the red Otter Pops were Cherry flavored. Wrong. They are Strawberry flavored. I've avoided eating them for 24 years... WTF)
So I'm hoping Mr M will remember to pick me up a 5lb bag of ice "today" after work- that way I can at least eat ice chips while the heat wave passes us for the next three days.


Lord help me- I feel very lost in all this seafoam.

Things that stand out.

Over the last year I've really come to appreciate a multitude of "facts/ideas/realizations".
These are the ones that stand out:

*My husband; Cant live without him, love of my life, AMAZING (in bed and out), thoughtful, kind, Sexxxxy, provider, good man, friend & husband, BEST thing to happen to my life.
*My son; Next to my husband- he's the greatest thing to happen to me in my whole life, Mr M Jr, my cuddle monster, fills my heart and brings life to our little family.
*Finer things in life; over-rated, not needed, come at a cost I'm often not willing to pay.
*EXs; of all sorts are left in the past for a reason- they never belonged in your future!!
*Rice Krispy Treats; forgotten favorite treat of childhoods past, instant hit at cookouts!
*Cows milk; I've never drank so much in my adult life as I have this year, it still grosses me out.
*Men crying; quite laughable, mostly for show, very ugly.
*Women crying; overly dramatic, annoys me instantly.
*The gym; I miss it, I cant wait to return so I can get my old (and hopefully a better) body back.
*End of the world theories; Just cause you realise you will die at some point- doesn't mean its the end of the WHOLE world ass-hat.
*Being pregnant; not what I thought it would be like, C-sections scare the shit outta me.

*Things I don't miss; The people I've cut out of my life, Cigs, getting hardcore drunk, "having to go out" every night of the week, hangovers.

*Things I DO miss; A cold beer once in a while, having smaller boobs, peeing only 3 or 4 times a day, balance & coordination, being able to see my feet, tanning, wearing short shorts.


This is just a few of the many topics I could go off of.... Though I'd rather get back to sleeping next to my main man than continue this purge of late night blog ideas. =)

Catching up.

Lord help me it's been a busy couple of weeks (since I last posted really).

Had a great visit with Mr M's little brother- and as a result, LB now is looking to move to WA to live with us while he starts his new life in "adulthood". It's pretty exciting for all of us, I know Mr M enjoyed having the company of family & it's a healthy choice to have him move away from TX.

The last few days have been hellish- though mostly because of a sudden heat wave that chose to hit WA. 90 degree temperatures do not agree with most people, let alone my very pregnant body.
Add that to no AC, and living on the third floor- the average temp in our house was easily 70+.
On top of that the compressor broke in our fridge early one morning, leaving us without ice/cold water and leaving what food we had ruined. The only good thing is we now have a new fridge that is SUPER cold!

MR M's "Friday" is tonight, so while he catches up on sleep in the morning- I'll be headed to my sisters to pick up gifts for a friends baby shower. (this being the second baby shower for me to attend in one weekend mind you)
I'm excited to get threw to payday this week, re-stock our kitchen, get my list of "extras" that I've been wanting for the house and maybe catch a movie with my main man ("men" if you count the one I'm carrying) and enjoy the cooler "yet still summer" weather we will be having these next couple of weeks.

As for an update on baby- I have a Dr's app on Monday, looking forward to discussing a birth plan and get my labor ward walk through set up.
Only 8 (or less?) weeks till our little guy gets here, I'm so excited to finally meet him. More so I'm excited to have a Mr M jr, as they are already so much alike and show interest in each other (aka: Jacob is a TOTAL daddy's boy already!!!)

Life is just moving right along, & I couldn't be happier =)