Braxton.

& I don't mean Tony.

Less than 10 weeks left till our little man gets here, I'm getting more and more excited to meet him!

Though I could do without the Braxton Hicks everyday. Nothing fun about "false labor", I'd rather have heart burn again!

Life has been moving right along. My young brother in law has made the trip up to spend some time with Mr M & I.
I'm enjoying seeing Mr M as a "big brother", he's cute (and more than a little jerky at times) but all in all it's a welcome change. As an added bonus, Mr M has taken leave for the next week so we can go and sight see!


Lord, I am a blessed woman =)

Summer lovin.

Words cant say how wonderful it is to have the summer season back in the PNW.
Our home gets an amazing breeze that comes off the waterfront a few miles away, the sun has made it's triumphant return- at least for the next two months...

Mr M has a short trip to NC again- but I'll be busy house/puppy sitting for my sister.
When he gets home, we will be hosting his younger brother while he is here for a visit.
This gives us great reasons to head up to Seattle for "sight seeing", a trip to the zoo, and spend the 4th with our family setting off fire works (purchased on the reserve- so you know they'll be good!)

I'm hoping for some tubing in the next few weeks, while I can still fit my belly in a tube!
BBQs & back yard parties are just around the corner. That means I'll be making yummie treats to take over (most likely trifle, Mr M's fav)

This season holds so many memories for me, just a year ago I was starting my new life-
Here we are again, & this year seems to promise even better memories to be had!!

<3

So thankful.

With all the bad that happens around us, we often don't give enough praise to the people who keep our lives special and meaningful.

1:My husband; He is my knight in shining armor, my provider, lover & best friend. When I hurt, he takes the lead- fixing what he can, and making sure I'm alright. He protects our family, ALL of our family, like no man I have ever seen- I admire that quality more and more each day.
I love him the most, I don't know how I ever became so lucky as to have such a great man as my partner in life.

2:My sister; My other half, quite literally the ying to my yang. She keeps me humble and grounded, and is there whenever I need her. She knows me to a fault- and I her. She is true beauty, inside and out. It's taken me all my life to fully appreciate her kindness and loving nature, her firm guidance and high standards. She has helped me become a better person, I owe her a lifetime of thanks.
We make a great team, and her hard work ethic and high moral standard are unequal to any other. She IS my other half.

3:My Holly June; Never had I dreamed of finding such a treasure in the hell hole of my past.
A more loyal or faithful friend cannot easily be found, nor one more ready to share a friendship when the stakes are stacked against you. We are so very similar in likes, a kindred soul that loves tanning, puppies and a happy meal. Whats not to love about someone you call a best friend?

4:Timmy & Ling; I cant be more thankful to have a couple to enjoy time with. Each individual is rich in qualities like loyalty, humor, intelligence and veracity. But together, pure magic. It is rare to find a pair that complements my husband and I so well- our interests are so similar, so on point- that we always enjoy ourselves while in their company. A true blessing of friendship.

5:Sergy; The godfather to my son, my extended family- He welcomed me with open arms and a cold one in hand. A mans man, a loving brother in law. He's ride or die till the end. I trust him with all my heart, and respect him immensely. Now if he'd get his butt back home, I've got some cooking to do- and that's how he KNOWS I love him.

This could go on forever- The point is, people really need to be able to vocalise their love and admiration for one another. This world would be so much better off if we all could stop to appreciate how the people around us enrich our lives each day. I know I'm making the effort, you never know when a person will need to hear how much they are loved most.

I should get paid for this.

Who ever thought I'd be so damn good at figuring out other peoples issues?!?
If say I had the 160gs and the next 6 years free, I'm sure I could make this into a profession.
Oorrrrr I could just be a big fake ala Dr Phil, and rake in millions.

I never expected to get such a grounded out look on relationships and communication from all the crappy years I couldn't help my self in my own bad situations.
Lord you work in funny ways.... I'm just thankful I am able to effectively say what others cannot.
Better still is that I can do so without placing "blame" and actually get things working for others again.

Holy ish, it's not as cool as a super power- but it sure feels like it's saving some lives =)

Some people-

Just wont ever get it. Period.

Sometimes you just wont be able to empathize with a person over a situation you've never been in, sometimes its just not possible.

Seeing a friend go though a similar situation that I've lived though is hard. It brings up the feelings I once had to go through. Even more so because I know our situations are connected by a leach of a human (ie: my EX being an ass and encouraging others to act like him)
It's a sickening feeling.

Though on one hand it feels like karma, as she stood up for my ex and his "logic" when it was happening to me. On the other, I'd never wish this upon anyone.
Its poison in your veins. A feeling of your skin crawling, you want to scream but nothing makes you feel better. This "sickness" I know she is feeling every second of every day. A sinking hole in your body that never seems to fill- no matter how much to try to close it off with positive thinking. You feel insane, you think terrible things. You wish to break things, him, that slut, your self. Your face burns from shame, you feel worthless and alone. Nothing ebbs the constant feeling of bile in your throat.
You know this person is not worth these feelings, you may even be glad it's all over. But nothing can take away the sting of betrayal. Nothing can change the fact that you were LEFT.
You were left for a "piece of ass". You put in years of work, sacrificed everything, gave your all- and for what? To be treated like you were NOTHING.

Ouch.

In the end you cant eat, the only thing you wish to drink needs a hard edge, & you pray for a sleep you wont wake up from.
It's harsh, and no one knows how bad it feels inside your own mind, because you put on a brave face.

But it should pass quickly right? Wrong.
She's a week into this, it took me three years to fully get over mine.
I can only pray that she will heal quickly.

What makes it worse is people adding their two cents.
It's a hard thing- having to tell people that not only were you left, but that they now know you are hurting. It's extra judgement, it weighs on your shoulders and soul.
Yes we know "he" is scum and should get his ass kicked (yes, "we" love hearing it) but "we" don't NEED you to tell us... It doesn't make it any easier, all it does is feed the pain.


I cant imagine how she is dealing with this, but she is, and better than most would. I only wish other people would grasp that this is a struggle that she has to face alone- no one can help her fix it. She doesn't need a white knight- she needs a band aid.
Deal. She is.

comme ci comme ca-

Things are looking up, all you have to do is try.
But while my life is getting better, a friends is falling apart.
"Such is life", but I know all too well what she is going through.
It never gets any easier!
After eons of men acting like pigs to the women the "love",
you'd think they would have figured it out by now!

Alas, I'll just stay content with the way things are going- uphill and making progress...
=)