The Great Bird.

Once again I find myself reeling from life's obstacles.
Once again I find myself working through it as best I can.

Things are different in life once you commit your self to another, you cannot just bolt at a
sign of weakness.
Were I younger and more prideful, I might not have been able to face this trial today.
I am once again reminded that I need to eat more scripture, and more often.
It gives my heart strength and guidance when all is dark, something I tend to forget when all is light in my life.
Though my heart is stronger against these trials, I still feel crushed like a ship against the rocks.
I must now focus more on drawing out the poison than the actual bite, a long process that I had hoped to never face again in my life.

And while that may be what I feel, I found myself not shaken in faith-
I did not cry to the Lord, asking "why?", but instead found a way to forgive.
And while I hurt, my heart hurts more for my husband.
I find myself asking for the grace to help him in the ways he cannot help himself.
My only hope is that this will strengthen my marriage for the future, though atonement is far from complete.

Lord help me, we all need red words.