many, many thoughts.

Today is unexpected in a most sad and reflective manner.
While I have been waiting to share our news with T, I received a call this morning letting me know he would have to cancel our lunch date.
He had just learned his mother had passed away this morning. I asked if he was OK- he told me he didn't know yet.
My heart breaks in moments like these. No condolences can make this better, no well wishes or words of love (however comforting) can bring back a loved one.
I am at a loss of words for him.

Rare is the occasion that I cannot find the right thing to say to T, having been my most loyal and my very best friend for years- we always seem to make any situation better. But today is not one of those days.
So here I sit and ponder, waiting by my phone in case he needs anything, hoping and praying he will make it through this painful time.

My own mother often jokes of living life & about how she wishes to die young, so that old age will not be able to cripple her or leave her alone.
I have always hated those talks, as much as she jokes- I need her to live long.
I think every child wishes their parents would live forever. None of us want to have to say goodbye to someone who has shaped us and crafted the people we are.
Especially in a time I feel closer to my mother than ever before, T losing his mother brings back the reality that life is frail.
Hope and wish all we want, when our loved ones die is not up to us. So all we can do is make the best of the time we have, and live with as much love as we can muster.